M.G =======》NO!

"Our mortal sin is not lust is lost!”

God please help me!

I don’t want to break heart!

I should not have salute...Ah…f**k

I beg you handle this issue!!!

I’m completely weak and I confess, for sure, I will surrender if she makes come-on.

Lord! help me!!!!!

My reasons to prevent her marriage:

1. She is insecure (football)

2. She was with others!

3. She loves others! (That boy)

4. She is a lair (fluid)

5. She is cheater (Soil)

6. She doesn’t love me! If she did, she would have looked different to me after the soil exam

7. She has a revolving door of guys around herself

My lord help me!

I know I had a role in that!

I plead guilty.

And should learn from this that I must be aware of starting a relation! I should see all the sides!

What a world it is!

One day I looked for her attention and know I am ditching her!

Beyond the characteristic's filth, I have my own problems: military service, overseas, money, family...

It is absolutely hard for me! And I want my lord to help me

All these discomposure!? are because of that sin, lust! And lost!

God is poking

1. Today by Mohammadreza Lotfi and yesterday by the elevator again I heard of union!

2. What is the role of it in my project?

3. Can it practically help?

4. Recently some sort of sound was uttering inside me the Alpacino’s Oscar speech: ‘We are all from a place … ’

5. What’s the role of lost issue?

6. Mohammadreza Lotfi mentioned the moment

7. Mohammadreza Lotfi also mentioned spring-cleaning he said if you love sth you’ll clean it!

 

 

you are right

1. Writing helps to give a private audience to you, it summons you from the fleeing staircase, and also empty the mind and causes creativity.

2. It’s good to write a lot and find an artistic style for it

3. Poem is good too

4. It prevents the problems to be complex 

Rogue

Recently a new concept has been planted in my brain that I name it rogue as watchword, i will mention some of my recent experiences that lead to this perception:

1. Akbar.raf was smart

2. The silence post!

3. Managing the group!

4. My pal issue

5. Evade people 

animus

I just can’t cooperate with my old pal he had broken my heart and …

But I’m happy because at least I’m not lying myself and I’m human…

A probable issue that may arise is why not to commute the sentence and forgive?

Is it a problem not to forgive? Is it something called as ‘kine’ ?

 

 

Cold hearted

 

 

I really beg God to prevent me from this hideous illness. I hate it but I have impurities …

What has happened to me and my society? Why we are so cold hearted? Let’s move on…

کش یعنی سیگار!!

If you break the chains you’re the Amir!

Everything  is shattered(and I’m shuttered!),  I have lost my reputation  completely , I don’t know if it is good or not but a feeling inside me says it’s good .

I have to start and I hope the God would help

I have to dump everything and everyone!

It’s absolutely hard and demanding.

I want to spend limit and arrive to ultimate part, I hate elasticity! I’m designed for rapture or rupture!

I don’t want to break because of creep! Help me my lord!

Of course there are still very hard dependencies on issues like M.M… but I hope god helps otherwise it will hardly damage me!

In February 27 I had a strange day!  I think I caught the  moment for a moment !!

 

silence

 

 

What I want to do now is to evade the noises, I want to settle down the dust and make the situation better for Amir! It’s not the goal and it won’t help to achieve outstanding result, but it will prepare the situation for my true thinking and emancipating my Amir.

One major problem will be others! They won’t get off my back even if I get off their back, as Woody Allen have also mentioned. But I have to be clever! In order to dump people I shouldn’t be nonchalant and majestic with them, I have to control it and manage it otherwise it will turn to a worse (vs. bad) disturbance.    

paradox

Have you ever thought about the paradoxes in the world?

For example people don’t look at beautiful faces ….

They pay attention to trivial things more than principal issues!

They are happy with sad songs

….

What’s the main problem here? What’s the root?

I think this can come from our inner figments that are built for pleasure!

M.R memorizer says:

“Just do dust deposition till you can see”

The question is here, how to clean ourselves?

There are two major approaches that seem to work: 1. Active 2. Passive

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Now I want to do a little catharsis! A point that has to be said is that I can hardly remember the imagination faults! Because I think my other part has felt the badness of the action and…

It won’t be irrelevant to confess (compare with confide) that I’m afraid from being like the star of shutter island!

OK, let’s start:

1. I imagined M.M looking at me while I was speaking to H.L

2. I imagined M.M peeking at me

3. I imagined playing basketball in front of…

4. I imagined making subtle conversation with A.M and H.L

5. I imagined beating A.M

6. I imagined my family stand up for salute for me

7. I imagined hugging soli in front of M.M, also soli loves me! And he says in front of M.M that this man (me) is great!

8. I imagined having trip with soli and shooting under the water…

9. I imagined going with soli to Shafiee

10. I imagined having an uncanny gesture while speaking to soli

11. I imagined being loved by group of people from kindergarten to university

12. I imagined having loyalty to soli

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من این نیستم!

امیرم کجایی؟!

دقیقا کجایی؟

I have to slay the Jabberwocky

I’m not this man!

I miss myself , I should cry for my lost!                                      

Where is my Alice?

من کجا خوابم برد؟