what to do

What’s happening to me? I’m shit faced! I can’t defeat this passivity, this thing is unprecedented in my life . So how to get to action? I think I know the theories very well but in action I’m zero! How to overcome the feeling?

Fuck this JustDo!

 

United states of Amir

What I think about in this 2, 3 days is union; I think it can play a magical potion in my freedom project that is in line with the transition project.

What does it mean? How did it come to happen to me?

In order to elaborate on the meaning I should say it is somehow like having a friend that accepts you, understands you and supports you… I know there is a lot to know about this idea but I hope this would be a trigger for the rest of the way!

Anyway how did it come to happen? I think a sense of Joy that is in union is a very important factor! The conflicts and unsatisfactory in the world really excruciates (not scrutinize) the soul and according to mystics there must be a response for this desire, let’s move on …

How can it help me to take a step forward to my goal? Did God plan this idea in my brain without any purpose? Should I unify my soul and body first? Or my states to defeat the enemy!? Is it just a daydream? How to unify? I hope all these questions will be answered soon, and I would certainly write it here!

P.S : Amir , America, Iran   

 

 

After a hard term

I came back!

Still my first disturbance is freedom. I want to discuss some experiments of myself that happened recently:

1.Today M.G was laughing with a beautiful man and I think I became jealous and I started imagining about myself knowing that boy from childhood.In the imagination M.G was sitting in the classroom watching us while I was reluctant to her . what this show? What's the main problem? let's do some analysis:

1.1: First thing is that I love her

1.2: Second thing is that she doesn't love me( I understand that from her devotion to him ) 

1.3: I want her to love me , so what I do? I start to imagine him in a way that I love him and I know he is beautiful in order to find an  overlapping point with her so maybe she love me

1.4: Why I think finding an overlapping point can bring her to me? I think one of the most important factor in this event is this! as another example I can mention rambod and modiri doing the same thing and also I myself do such things, Why? The root should be in me! I mean if someone has the same idea as me I would love him or her! To be more precise I can say a matter of allience,...  I think scrutinizing and contemplating this won't help so ...

2.I think I shouldn't get involve in trivial thoughts