یادگاری ها

شعر ها و دل نوشته هایم

                                                   

I had some events recently! First as I wanted to say hello –and I said it silently! - Something happened! First, yesterday as I went home with a completely disturbed mood I encountered my mother’s influenza. Second as I walked through the university from where I met my brother I noticed that I have a bad feeling and after that something strange happened ,a locust marched straight toward me and landed in my neck , and this happened in spite of me being in a roofed area of the university!! After that saying hello! I went to the Mosque and l lay down and I started to speak with myself and attack my manners! I arrived to this that I wanted to make myself a mystic character for them! And my heart calmed down! So then I went to the praying room and I prayed joyfully and after my last class I met her in ‘jolof’ …

I thank my lord for helping me! I hope he will guide me!!

۲۱ مهر ۹۶ ، ۱۶:۵۱
JUST DO

                                                  

I had very good accidents as I used this method! I think it freed my mind !!

1.آب آبی نیست!صورت صورتی نیست! آبی به صورت بزنید لطفا

2.خیال-بافی کنید..با خیال راحت

3.دست از طلب ندارم

4.مظاهر دیگه نمیاد

5.حس خوب ورزش کردن

6.فهمیدن آنانکه خاک را به نظر کیمیا کنند

7.گیر دادن به زیکفرید

8.سلیمانی شنیدن

I wanna make a project in my university issue too

Of course I’m a little numb in these days; maybe it is because of not writing! And also not watching flipped!

I am very thirsty of women attention!!! I was phony at 1 mehr!!!

۰۹ مهر ۹۶ ، ۲۱:۵۹
JUST DO

ما نگوییم بد و میل به ناحق نکنیم

جامه کس سیه و دلق خود ازرق نکنیم


عیب درویش و توانگر به کم و بیش بد است

کار بد مصلحت آن است که مطلق نکنیم


رقم مغلطه بر دفتر دانش نزنیم

سر حق بر ورق شعبده ملحق نکنیم


شاه اگر جرعه رندان نه به حرمت نوشد

التفاتش به می صاف مروق نکنیم


خوش برانیم جهان در نظر راهروان

فکر اسب سیه و زین مغرق نکنیم


آسمان کشتی ارباب هنر می شکند

تکیه آن به که بر این بحر معلق نکنیم


گر بدی گفت حسودی و رفیقی رنجید

گو تو خوش باش که ما گوش به احمق نکنیم


حافظ ار خصم خطا گفت نگیریم برو

ور به حق گفت جدل با سخن حق نکنیم


 #حافظ

۲۹ شهریور ۹۶ ، ۰۱:۱۶
JUST DO

 

                                                      Friday, September 15, 2017

I wanna write after a big delay.

Recently we had travelled to Shiraz and many things happened:

1.      My brother took action in family affairs and started to attack my parents in order to shake their manners and he got results too! I think his determinacy and purpose was a key role. At first I started to be jealous of it but at last I went to sense of accepting the truth and good things happened that will be discussed below anon.

2.     I should say that I had feelings of being just an imitator and have nothing from myself but meanwhile I started to insist on my project for M.M(more accurately the final cause of the project will be M.M ) and while I was thinking of saying hello to her an old man in the park that was sporting! said hello to me!    

3.     Another event was that when I started to think critically toward my desire for M.M I thought maybe my will is a matter of lust but when I came to write a post of it the computer shut down and I got a random poem from the Hafez which said:

دلا در عاشقی ثابت قدم باش...که در این ره نباشد کار بی اجر

4.     Another event was yesterday when after imagining about M.M in river and etc. I went to a mood that I could dig a little more in  The Great Gatsby and it made me feel better.

5.     Also I arrived that what is told as self-surveillance is necessary. As an example I can mention the day at the company when I was filled with bad emotions about my body I decided to change the mood by looking at external objects and Mr.Behnia told me of this too and after that I started to feel better.

6.     Today I had a little bad feelings maybe because of hearing about things that reminded me of my apology in instagram or my probable fertility issue! Or the thing that happened to my grandma!

7.     I think I should be more earnest!

 

یا لطیف ارحم عبدک الضعیف...

۲۴ شهریور ۹۶ ، ۱۷:۴۰
JUST DO

 

accident !!                                                       Friday, August 25, 2017

I’m sure that I have thought of the accident moment in my project!! Especially just before coming home after wondering in neighborhood!!

 

Be careful !!                                                       Thursday, August 24, 2017

Avoid thoughts that make your view gloom!

Be careful not to trap in the well of attracting attention!!! You are imagining that! Your laughter at congress was a shame; don’t try to turn it to good!

You are not going in the project way!! Be more earnest!

Now you think that that bad omen has gone don’t waste time!

Let music away!! Till your purpose achieved!! Because it wastes your time and makes it gloom!

یا رب از ابر هدایت برسان بارانی

 

 

 

Way through…                                                       Tuesday, August 22, 2017

1.      Following the brain’s own images can help through transition!

2.     My first idea of a snowy mountain which my cell phone was buried came in this way.

3.     I will continue my quest for M.M if I could achieve something that deserves the gap I will go further and if I didn’t I won’t give up my quest for Lord.

4.     The “stubborn” stuff that has come to me recently won’t be dismissed it was achieved after big-time.

5.     I feel good about my exiting from chamran hall.

6.     I should be careful! I’m letting my imagination fly deliberately to everywhere it wants! I have got good feedbacks after abstaining from looking at mirror!

7.     I heard of iridescent last night in that very movie so I got more and more excited by the accident it had with my story on instagram!

8.     I should use my time more specifically now that I can dodge the reality bullet!

9.     I imagined myself that I put headphone on Omid’s head in front of M.M! I think my pm in telegram has facilitated the way through this imagination.

10.  A sense tells me that I should be clever and let the passive thoughts away now that I’m in power! It won’t affect the fact that I’m getting good feedback! It can be good absolutely!

11.   So the agenda is this: 1.fight the passivity by simply understand and evade it 2.be more active by thinking on a) trivia b) language & reading book c) project d) enjoy your enemies’ victory

۰۴ شهریور ۹۶ ، ۰۰:۰۴
JUST DO

The 7th of khordad was the day of a huge impact!

۳۰ مرداد ۹۶ ، ۲۳:۳۳
JUST DO

هرچند که دل تنگ تر از تنگ بلورم

با کوه غمت سنگ تر از سنگ صبورم


اندوه من انبوه تر از دامن الوند

بشکوه تر از کوه دماوند ،غرورم


یک عمر پریشانی دل بسته به مویی ست

تنها سر مویی ز سر موی تو دورم


ای عشق به شوق تو گذر میکنم از خویش

تو قاف قرار من و من عین عبورم


بگذار به بالای بلند تو ببالم

از تیره ی نیلوفرم و تشنه نورم


13 تیر 96

۳۰ مرداد ۹۶ ، ۲۲:۰۴
JUST DO
شب وصل است و طی شد نامه هجر
سلام فیه حتی مطلع الفجر

دلا در عاشقی ثابت قدم باش
که در این ره نباشد کار بی اجر

من از رندی نخواهم کرد توبه
ولو اذیتنی بالهجر و الحجر

بر آی ای صبح روشن دل خدا را
که بس تاریک میبینم شب هجر

دلم رفت و ندیدم روی دلدار 
فغان از این تطاول اه از این زجر

وفا خواهی جفاکش باش حافظ
فان الربح و الخسران فی التجر
۲۹ مرداد ۹۶ ، ۱۳:۴۹
JUST DO


Imaginations:

1.       I found myself imagining while I’m in the site (I think it’s related to that chaos) and listening to my friend, Omid and console him and cry with him while not realizing that they are there!

2.      I imagined M.S in the site is telling them about my love for Ahmad Azizi and says that I had cried for him when he passed.

3.      I imagined myself remaining silent while H.L speaks to me!

4.      I imagined that M.M had seen me in that Congress while laughing and exiting!  

Interpretations:

1.       It indicates that I need to be shown as a kind man to catch their attention! And it also compensates the very fact that in that chaos I was offensive!

2.      It indicates that I want to make a reason for my insisting on posting from that book while she didn’t liked it!

3.      Maybe I wanted to find a common point with her or show off and feign to be a smart man!

4.      This gives me that inattention joy and also with the company of that type of laughter that I have realized its beauty before it endears me to her.

Trivia:

1.       Last night I don’t know exactly why and how I went to hossein panahi again but it had a huge influence on me that I went out for walk at midnight! I cried last night till morning thinking about my childhood sufferings most! Maybe it remind me of past!

2.      Also Mehran Modiri telling Nasrollah Radesh about him being good hearted relived me from some strife related to me and my father!(for me my apology post and for my father …) , but I think I shouldn’t be happy of this!

Conclusion:

All I do is according to give pleasure to the ego! It would be good if I can control it even if I not able to slay it. Perhaps the world would be absurd without that evil!

 

۲۹ مرداد ۹۶ ، ۰۹:۵۹
JUST DO

                                                         

Let’s discuss about what to do with her!

First I should peer at my present deal with her! What’s my sense for her? If she wasn’t rank would I think about her again?? Is she beautiful?? Am I fallen in love?? Is it a true love?

It had been accidents that support the theory of true love!! Also we have looked at each other in a lovely way! And you know she started the deal!!

I can’t marry her because of many reasons (money, fertility, backstabbing to H.L, our family difference…)  

So it would be very bad to play with her emotions!

Also I have done something that indicated my love! If I give up it may damage (if she doesn’t hate me!) her!!

She had understood my feelings by her post!

Flipped!!

I can’t stop thinking about you!

Suddenly the Babazadeh issue remind of that filth in myself!!(that inheritance thought!)

I think in this dust I shouldn’t care about benefits! It’s really important to avoid costs!

Can it be possible that she swears at me and free me like the lady in gambler!

For now it’s better to focus on the project and later by the beginning of the term I will decide!

But how if it’s better to solve this and then go to project?

Imagine that she hated you from beginning! How preposterous it would be!

Help me lord

Your attentive Novice,

Amir,

RSVP

۲۹ مرداد ۹۶ ، ۰۰:۴۹
JUST DO