I'm back

Hello my dears!
I was busy in recent days I had 2 mid-term exams (fluid and soil mechanics) I was reading all day long , fortunately the result will be good.
I had hard days! It started last Wednesday after the soil mechanics TA  class . I went to an intemperate mood which was a mental collapse . The story begins while I started commenting on Madani's class : I said that girl...  I have a vague image of what happened but now I think I shouldn't  have been disturbed by that. Maybe Maudie was a reason maybe!...
The second episode was again with this class on the subsequent Monday that I again commented ....
I really don't want to scrutinize the reasons of that but the fact is that it faded my selfdom and my recent impressions of human destructive role on others but it proved that :)
Fortunately I overcame the feeling and now I'm writing this essay. But why I collapsed while I had those thoughts of people? A reason can be the ... [I said I don't want to scrutinize :)]
Lets come back to our project , my last clue was that we are simply what we are I mean If we are here we are here! By thinking about being in other place it won't work. I saw a post from Parviz yesterday that was about Socrates choking a person in the river... which was a good evidence of my idea!
Finally you have to have a great demand for what you want(as Socrates said to that man)

Just Do

“To go to sleep you have to pretend to be asleep until you really fall asleep”

 8SHIT.NET

What does it show? I think it can work for the transition method. First I want to proofread the word ‘pretend’ , I think it is unfit for(?) the sentence , It would be more convenient if we say you have to have a strong will for that. There is a question, why this strong will appears when we want to sleep and we simulate by closing eyes and not winking ? 

A question that has obsessed my mind is why we fade during sleep? Is the state of transition the same? Is it the matter of will? I mean implicitly we don’t want to go to that state! As one of the integral belief of Gnostics: “what you seek is you!” I think this hypothesis is probably true!

As an instance I should mention my personal stastus(?) during the cluttering(?)  adolescence specially in the forth grade of high school , I remember I had a sultry soul, hearing things, half-sleep during the Farasati(classic cinema) ,…

Euler

Eulerian intuition!
I'm thinking nowadays about the mathematical intuition and relation between that and state of flow .my supposition is that distinguished mathematicians and physicians see problems in an intuitive prospect, for example they don't use formula to evaluate the distance between two points they feel it! how? how to go to that state? Is it ecstasy?

problem

The problem
The problem in my transition project is not now omitting the time and place but while I omit current time and place I go to state of sleep and become faded! Interestingly I go to sleep while I'm not sleepy! why? can an open eye help? or the problem is remembering? or the problem is concentrating? maybe the problem is that there is a powerful force in you that when you omit the factors it starts to control you! what is that? shall(?) I have preparation  before doing the project ? I mean a sort of phantom cleanness . Is my soul in agony? maybe there is fundamental problem: Does it work for me???  what's my perfection ? but I think it's too early to give up on this project.
Maybe I should wait till my new prolific thought starts to fruit and I hopefully I will find my own way.

Flow chart

برای نمایش مطلب باید رمز عبور را وارد کنید

face the fire

Thief of humanity 

You know I think I (this time no we:)) have procrastinate my life on others point of view. To some extent you should excuse me! I had a unique circumstance that no one had! I don't want to mourn here but I mean it is ok! To elaborate on my issue I mention some cases.

1.K1: I think I shouldn't copy and accept him I should be aware of imitation. What that hasn't proved for me shouldn't be accepted in the smoke screen of otherworldly fear!(compare with javad:))

I think fear has been the main cause of this hassle I should be more courage than this and face the fire!

2.I think I should be more honest with myself some works that I'm doing is not proved to me but I have a vague image of them in my brain. It is ok to act based on unclear beliefs or probability but I should discriminate between the real faith and these ones.

3. The other fact is that recently I see people (from k1 to texas ) deceptive!

I think they steal my humanity and myself.

they make judges, they try to direct you tacitly! They have such fu**king beliefs and want to transmit it.

They mock someone without thinking about the impact for a while! And a second later they go to the role of a surviver! What a hypocrisy and what a phony people!

4.Another thing that is inherent in you and was with you from the childhood is the sense of existence. Why am I me? Why I'm not somebody else? 

At the end I appreciate the soli's understandings this point (masnavi,shah-shah ) and k1.

rheum

Rheum 

You know it's interesting to catch cold! I started to ponder that a few seconds ago!

What a vulnerable body we have! It is very interesting to me!

It makes me understand the worth of health