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تنم افتاده خونین زیر این آوار شب اما
دری زین دخمه سوی خانه ی خورشید بگشادم

My body has fallen bloody under the night's debris but

I have opened a door through the sun's home..

گلستان ساز زندان را

It’s a really serious subject! It’s won’t get to result without action.

The point is here we don’t enjoy unless in loneliness! So why do we do that in public?

It’s very difficult to resolve this! I have to get to action to answer these problems!

What to do? {I’m suddenly thinking about  هین مبند آن را به سوگند گران was in line with the issue of freedom}

 

murderer

I really don’t know what to do! Should I use any lemma to solve the problem? How to defeat the ego?

My mind has been poisoned strongly recently! I hadn’t been so week as I am today , but what can I do ?

I remember my idea about the passive and active! I think it has a close relation to my freedom issue. It shows that the problem hasn’t solved yet, and they are getting united!

{I suddenly remembered the Einstein’s work of unifying the four forces!!} maybe I should unify my problems, maybe!

A strange voice whispers inside me about the relation between the union and freedom!

When would this puzzle complete? {As MR.Aghabayg said today}

Puzzle parts: dance, engross, freedom, transition, union,deception,break me,...

How to free not for a transient time?! Am I an addict? I think the desire should be solved , e.g. I have to manage a fundamental solution for it  .

Is joy the problem? What is death in mystic beliefs? How to kill it? Give it less honey and bread?  Replace it with a new joy? …

“ Let him continue on his journey …  

 

 

 

 

pride

Why we don’t look at people who we love? Why? Why we think it’s bad that they think we care about them? Why there are such paradoxes in the world?

I think it has a root that is not necessarily dirty! What is the root? Maybe the root is freedom and the desire for it that is a human trait.

 

 

what to do

What’s happening to me? I’m shit faced! I can’t defeat this passivity, this thing is unprecedented in my life . So how to get to action? I think I know the theories very well but in action I’m zero! How to overcome the feeling?

Fuck this JustDo!

 

United states of Amir

What I think about in this 2, 3 days is union; I think it can play a magical potion in my freedom project that is in line with the transition project.

What does it mean? How did it come to happen to me?

In order to elaborate on the meaning I should say it is somehow like having a friend that accepts you, understands you and supports you… I know there is a lot to know about this idea but I hope this would be a trigger for the rest of the way!

Anyway how did it come to happen? I think a sense of Joy that is in union is a very important factor! The conflicts and unsatisfactory in the world really excruciates (not scrutinize) the soul and according to mystics there must be a response for this desire, let’s move on …

How can it help me to take a step forward to my goal? Did God plan this idea in my brain without any purpose? Should I unify my soul and body first? Or my states to defeat the enemy!? Is it just a daydream? How to unify? I hope all these questions will be answered soon, and I would certainly write it here!

P.S : Amir , America, Iran   

 

 

After a hard term

I came back!

Still my first disturbance is freedom. I want to discuss some experiments of myself that happened recently:

1.Today M.G was laughing with a beautiful man and I think I became jealous and I started imagining about myself knowing that boy from childhood.In the imagination M.G was sitting in the classroom watching us while I was reluctant to her . what this show? What's the main problem? let's do some analysis:

1.1: First thing is that I love her

1.2: Second thing is that she doesn't love me( I understand that from her devotion to him ) 

1.3: I want her to love me , so what I do? I start to imagine him in a way that I love him and I know he is beautiful in order to find an  overlapping point with her so maybe she love me

1.4: Why I think finding an overlapping point can bring her to me? I think one of the most important factor in this event is this! as another example I can mention rambod and modiri doing the same thing and also I myself do such things, Why? The root should be in me! I mean if someone has the same idea as me I would love him or her! To be more precise I can say a matter of allience,...  I think scrutinizing and contemplating this won't help so ...

2.I think I shouldn't get involve in trivial thoughts 

الا ای صبح آزادی

Its really important to not stand in ur place and keep going on ,there has been always a sort of sense with people who deny my opinions or dont give a shit to a typic subject!

Why this happens and had happened before without putting that in  perspective?

A probable reason can be the vanity of all thoughts! I mean none of them are the truth we look for! And implicitly we feel that ! But recently it has came to   my mental disturbance .

So how to break ! How to snatch  the goal? The problem is that what to do? I hope this help to go forward a pace , but I think I should keep going on transition method and the point that "you are simply yourself" .

Is there any relation between this and the point above?? Think about it😉😏

Examples:

1.I told my brother soli is a free man

2.the god father

3.lust

4.inattention to people gives energy!

5.people who dont speak

6.To your penis

7.some proverbs(az dor lengesh   kon)

8.sabok tokhmete

9.buy zoo that boy

breake me!

Let’s go straight to the issue, I want to mention some points that recently have come to my mind:

1-      We are capable of any thoughts! I mean a new thought can be embedded in us very easily my experience was the girl attention. Till recent weeks I didn’t care about that but now I’m thinking about it and it’s important for whether they care about it or not . But how did it happen? A probable answer  is that in recent weeks I started to feel good about myself in case of looking .The TA speaking to me,… but suddenly I started to think reversely! Like when an artistic stuff is been created you suddenly start to think about the weak points and this is the process of evolution of art, maybe it’s not good in all perspectives and makes more complexity but….

2-      Clever people don’t hit the books- A good friend is a person who breaks you and free you (I don’t know how it came to me) – My brother told me ‘Sheykh’,…

 

I'm back

Hello my dears!
I was busy in recent days I had 2 mid-term exams (fluid and soil mechanics) I was reading all day long , fortunately the result will be good.
I had hard days! It started last Wednesday after the soil mechanics TA  class . I went to an intemperate mood which was a mental collapse . The story begins while I started commenting on Madani's class : I said that girl...  I have a vague image of what happened but now I think I shouldn't  have been disturbed by that. Maybe Maudie was a reason maybe!...
The second episode was again with this class on the subsequent Monday that I again commented ....
I really don't want to scrutinize the reasons of that but the fact is that it faded my selfdom and my recent impressions of human destructive role on others but it proved that :)
Fortunately I overcame the feeling and now I'm writing this essay. But why I collapsed while I had those thoughts of people? A reason can be the ... [I said I don't want to scrutinize :)]
Lets come back to our project , my last clue was that we are simply what we are I mean If we are here we are here! By thinking about being in other place it won't work. I saw a post from Parviz yesterday that was about Socrates choking a person in the river... which was a good evidence of my idea!
Finally you have to have a great demand for what you want(as Socrates said to that man)