After a hard term

I came back!

Still my first disturbance is freedom. I want to discuss some experiments of myself that happened recently:

1.Today M.G was laughing with a beautiful man and I think I became jealous and I started imagining about myself knowing that boy from childhood.In the imagination M.G was sitting in the classroom watching us while I was reluctant to her . what this show? What's the main problem? let's do some analysis:

1.1: First thing is that I love her

1.2: Second thing is that she doesn't love me( I understand that from her devotion to him ) 

1.3: I want her to love me , so what I do? I start to imagine him in a way that I love him and I know he is beautiful in order to find an  overlapping point with her so maybe she love me

1.4: Why I think finding an overlapping point can bring her to me? I think one of the most important factor in this event is this! as another example I can mention rambod and modiri doing the same thing and also I myself do such things, Why? The root should be in me! I mean if someone has the same idea as me I would love him or her! To be more precise I can say a matter of allience,...  I think scrutinizing and contemplating this won't help so ...

2.I think I shouldn't get involve in trivial thoughts