face the fire

Thief of humanity 

You know I think I (this time no we:)) have procrastinate my life on others point of view. To some extent you should excuse me! I had a unique circumstance that no one had! I don't want to mourn here but I mean it is ok! To elaborate on my issue I mention some cases.

1.K1: I think I shouldn't copy and accept him I should be aware of imitation. What that hasn't proved for me shouldn't be accepted in the smoke screen of otherworldly fear!(compare with javad:))

I think fear has been the main cause of this hassle I should be more courage than this and face the fire!

2.I think I should be more honest with myself some works that I'm doing is not proved to me but I have a vague image of them in my brain. It is ok to act based on unclear beliefs or probability but I should discriminate between the real faith and these ones.

3. The other fact is that recently I see people (from k1 to texas ) deceptive!

I think they steal my humanity and myself.

they make judges, they try to direct you tacitly! They have such fu**king beliefs and want to transmit it.

They mock someone without thinking about the impact for a while! And a second later they go to the role of a surviver! What a hypocrisy and what a phony people!

4.Another thing that is inherent in you and was with you from the childhood is the sense of existence. Why am I me? Why I'm not somebody else? 

At the end I appreciate the soli's understandings this point (masnavi,shah-shah ) and k1.