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I am afraid of the likes so I don't wanna go to insta.

I saw a sleep last night about it: M.M had put a half-comment. Amani did the same! soroush sehat! also did and he also gave me the link! ...

But I feel an espesial power that it gives me by abstraining from ideas of being... if I could do this I think it will help for project too.

I also think that apology was a mental unloading and it will have bad effecfs for me! and beacause of that I made inner conversations of this is religious and...

I have also some sense of persistance as I have posted last night.

This mood is also good that happened after yesterday post.I think I can turn it to benefit if I can.

I'm taking control!

• My today post and not watching the likers gave energy!

• I want to post my winter video and write caption about  15th of mordad

• I feel I’m getting control of my life and now I’m an elector 

• I would continue on my journey.

• I’m going to eat puff!

Desultory thoughts!

·        I should come to myself and be Amir!

·        In last two days I started to have good idea and imaginations about myself and also I’m afraid of that

·        It’s good that I have various language platforms that each of them fits a mood

·        Action!!

·        Irregular watching at mirror helps!!

·        I should fathom the secrets of the universe

·        Thoughts are disasters! Just action!! They should be used only in some limited case because …

·        Never set your mind at rest

·        Continue on the journey…

Translation of wound

·        I feel like the boy before Bryce in auction.

·        Drinking water helps preventing constipation.

·        An image between two mirrors will have a perpetual motion.

·        I won’t let grudge or animus enter my heart.

·        I should shave my umbilical area.

·        I had posted a handicap man.

 

Today I posted on instagram a post from Ahmad Aziz’s famous book: ‘Translation of wound’.

It came out of my yesterday watching movie and the way it gave me the energy to fire my

 

imagination.

 

But it didn’t get the likes I expected. But I decided to overcome the thoughts of being hated by

 

others and stand active and as I get to the purpose all of them will admire me! So I have to  

 

keep going on what I was planned!

In the company

I’m sitting in the company behind my desk.

 

I want to mention that it’s not bad but I don’t know how I came in here!

 

Humans are very complicated!! As we had in high school religious books that because God

 

knows the humans and we have a short lifetime it is rational to be religious!

 

Ok , I’m now really empty of such enjoyable thoughts and only the truth can console me!

 

As I have said I will go through it even if comes to the point of isolation.

 

 

Life has troughs and crests

 

I abstain  division …

 

#instamood 

instagram idea

For going more on my project I decided to use the instagram platform! 

 

I want also to make a clip for graduation in this platform!

word playing

(Wrote online and needs proofread)

Shroud of snow was beautiful

Glimmer + shudder=shimmer

Rust & dust

John Waned!

Sham & candle

 

You know in this mutability i want to continue on language and sport! And maybe starting pre-study.

 

I think a kind of hidden force sometimes happen to take control of me and it comes most often when i go to hindsight and I couldn't have banish it yet and I think I should wait!

 

I want god to help me!

 

I don't know if this mood is a wage or guide but i think first i should get out of it! Because it is a cycle and wouldn't have result!

Back (?) to transition

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• I want to graft my last year experiences and continue my way, many of them don’t have contradiction but because of some unknown reasons I’m stressed! OK, let’s start the manifest:
• 1. Key words:
• 1.       Active(A&T)
• 2.       Abstraction(A)
• 3.       Take it easy(A)
• 4.       Conceivable(A)
• 5.       Using substantial objects(A)
• 6.       Democracy(T)
• 7.       Joy(A)
• 8.       Satisfaction(T)
• 9.       Repressed desires(T)
• 10. Others effect(T)
• 11. Word poison(T)
• 12. Brain conversation(T)
• 13. Don’t blame yourself(T)
• 14. Interacting with yourself(A)
• 15. Suppose you know that before(A)
• 16. Flexibility(A)
• 17. Nostalgia(T)
• 18. Run to B(A)
• 19. Thief of humanity(T)
• 20. Continuity and persistence in jerk-off(A)
• 21. Not only omit the time and take care of implicit thoughts(A)
• 22. Difference between sleep and transition(A&T)
• 23. See the distance(T)
• 24. Strong will (as Socrates choked that man)and sultry soul and virtually sleep(T)
• 25. Break me(T)
• 26. Freedom from thought(T)
• 27. You are simply yourself(A&T)
• 28. Union from M.G hassle(T)
• 29. United States of Amir(A&T)
• 30. Feeling passive(T)
• 31. Not looking at people that we love and pride(T)
• 32. Feeling lost(T)
• 33. Paradoxes in actions and catharsis(T)
• 34. Silence with subtlety and knowing that it’s not the goal but a mean(A&T)
• 35. Break the chains(T)
• 36. Feeling cold-hearted(T)
• 37. Having animus!(T)
• 38. Rouge(T)
• 39. Writing is good(T)
• 40. Mohammadreza Lotfi and union again(T)
• 41. Earnest in battle against ego(T)
• 42. Why I’m not crying?(T)
• 43. Pray for stability(T)
• 44. Having sorrow(compare with gham) for cleaning(T)
• 45. Accept your unhappiness(T)
• 46. Don’t feed others ego and have patience(T)
• 47. Again silence and unity(T)
• 48. Don’t cut an aching leg!(T)
• 49. No contradiction! resolve it(T)
• 50.  Don’t be against your forces or you will lose your horses(T)
• 51. New(T)
• 52. Enjoy your enemy’s victory ,that’s the art of history: Hello Hafez(T)
• 53. Feeling contradiction between freedom and latter issue(T)
• 54. Changing the brain language(T)
• 55. Everything is mortal and transient(T)
• 56. Time and hawking(T)
• 57. Being active overthrows distress (T)
• 58. Power (T)
• It’s very interesting that I have been more theoretical recently than I was a year ago! And because of that I’m in this mess!
• Ok! I take it easy and will try to come back to action again! This time more earnestly! I won’t be deceived! Won’t!!
• My disturbance is now only to find an image to concentrate on it! I want to use my above experiences to guess one! OK let’s start:
• My first offer is: contacting with M.M and ask her to make a story from her father!!

Power

 

I again come back to the point that I was just a year before! Almost 1.5 year ago (during geology course)!!

The reason is that I haven’t got the result that I wanted! I have experienced some sort of enthusiasm and good understanding stuff but I haven’t get to the kind of understanding that I want now! I don’t know maybe I have been deceived or it was necessary and may help.

Anyway I want to back to transition project and concentrate on it while keep other aspects go forward!

I want my lord to help me!!

I go to let away that sort of music hearing.

The little prince

I had this mood for about a fortnight! It was hard! Suddenly I started to be active and strong and I went to a good mood and made a lot of poems… the day after that I started to make amendment and I followed the… till that threat happened twice but again now I have regained the activity and power …

It was interesting that I heard about my problem both in M.M and M.A posts…