Cyrus

Writing keeps my sprit ....

 

Free the flag ...

 

What can I do ? 

 

Im so worried of Iran

 

My heart is always with this nation ....

 

ps7 , sabbah , ...

 

Dear God help me with confirmation...

 

Dear God help Iran ...

 

 

 

meeting and still confused

I have a meeting today, and I have not been working recently bcz I could not concentrate 

I usually go to unich photo and start imagination about Iran Kurdistan 

it is a new pulpit for bek and ameli.... it is based on the amel reaction to political discourse

it is a pulpit and it has some pillars :

 

1) Amel this Sunday and his saying hello to Hadi

2) that session with Hadi and sanct and her follow up on me

3) Zoe laghter and her comment on hadi dance

 

confused

I cannot concentrate and am obsessed with music ...

What's going on? Is it because of Iran?

What can I do?

 

let's do sth free association :

 

1. some casserole

 

 

15 Dec 2022: 

Bday to sam and Issac back now ...

2.  Melli bank

3. 

 

47

Today I recognized the guy at the post office is like Tomaj and the I beam, and the content of the last post came to my mind. A few minutes ago, 47 got bold in two events: 1) Kate Winslet on titanic and her age 2) Time: 4:47 . In the morning, the Z.Ch shared a post about the house and then looked at Sorena by Vahid. Also, girls with masks in Woolies reminded me of the Taylor directing all too well, which was released last night.

 

Thinking about I is important!

 

Kate and Taylor : CS

 

4:47 is litmap .... mindmap

 

Pm konsoli was surprise!

 

Luke (look) 5 oct : Looking is part of the cs ?

 

oh! sync sound of silence : neon god with calf in thought

دانی که چه خواهم من دلسوخته از تو

خواهم که نخواهم، دگرم هیچ نظر نیست

 

 

Shutting down the senses 

 

Last night elite-anarch?

 

Today: 10 Dec 2022

Again 47 !! ( 20:47)

Kate and shit ??

 

Today I had positive feelings for Germany after flipping through Freud.

 

فیلم مراکش بر پایهٔ رمانی به همین نام نوشتهٔ استر فروید ساخته شده و داستان مادری مجرد از انگلیس را روایت می‌کند که در آرزوی رسیدن به زندگی بهتری در دههٔ ۱۹۷۰ مراکش است.[۵۰][۵۳] جانت ماسلین از نیویورک تایمز از تصمیم وینسلت برای دنبال کردن تایتانیک با چنین پروژهٔ نامتعارفی ستایش کرد و ذکر داشت که چقدر خوب «بی‌توجهی و خوش‌بینی» شخصیت خود را به تصویر کشیده‌است.[۵۳]

 

 

Born in London,[1]  Freud is the daughter of Bernardine Coverley and painter Lucian Freud. She is also a great-granddaughter of Sigmund Freud and niece of Clement Freud. She travelled extensively with her mother as a child, returning to London at 16 to train as an actress at The Drama Centre.

 

Hideous Kinky

https://www.primevideo.com/dp/amzn1.dv.gti.aeb1fe68-c1ad-f961-68e5-6db45e22940b?autoplay=0&ref_=atv_cf_strg_wb

 

Mahdiyed sltn and 47 and Germany (Max plank)

 

 

 

 

It is no surprise!

 

 

 

From melb

 

I want to continue my writing here after a long time. I know it is old-fashioned to communicate through web pages these days, but there is a benefit to this type of media:

1. The message will reach its audience with a delay, which could be against the haste climate of these days.
2. This medium is more proactive than social media since the reader should deliberately reach the website.
3. Like what happened with theatre after the coming of cinema, the old has its taste!
4. Writing essays provides more time to reflect on the topic and helps the cohesion of the thoughts.

 

 

To start, today, I posted my documents to renew one of the Ids. I hope it goes well.

 I saw the 2312 sign, which was for the time I was obsessed with numbers 12 and 23 and then the combination resulted in a sci-fi book by Stanly Kim Robinson. 

Last night I was thinking about the notion of 'self', and reseeing it today on my web was a blessing.

I was stunned by how I thought feelings were fundamental in 2018!

I'm a worthy person!

Last night I went to CS mood after Zibakalm and started the marriage request and fearless, and that undressing became bold.

 

This 'I' .........Oh! Today I saw a store "Eye see ..." and yes! and this I think is related to seeing... This 'I' is an important thing .... Let's take with heart the words of Molavi and Hafez, etc. "Ey ghome be haj rafte ...."

 

 Now I connected with beautiful Meg! 

 

What's this I?

Candidates :

1. Silence
2. God
3. Blindness 
4. 'Senselessness' (superficially, perhaps after this blocking, there will be the real one) - It is tricky !- It needs cs. --- I saw Hatef again
5. Adam = Adam ( nisti) , madam
6. You are your veil ( Hafez)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hallucination- Ilusion – Dream July 17, 2021, 3:07 A.M

 

I’m writing after a lot of time. My main goal now is to get rid of hallucinations which I mainly interpret as some sort of repetitive imagination I have where in them I imagine myself in front of M.M and mainly I talk to M.S. I know the domain is may be bigger, but I can only touch this for now. In the case of substantial motion, there is an illusion (not hallucination) and I think reaching another dimension will clarify that issue. One thing that usually comes with hallucination (or dream) is the notion of “self”. I don’t know whether it is positive or negative. But from experience, I think it is positive. It can be both positive or negative if we assume two selves. The latter has been said by K1 too. Other things connected to hallucinations are “blindness” and “hijab”. To put all these puzzle pieces in the right position is my current project now. Besides, I know a fact that is connected to my psychological trap (page 151 of the book) that a piece of this puzzle is “my mothers will”. I guess these hallucinations which are mainly focusing on girls’ favourites may have been rooted in the fact that I lack to attract a “girl will” probably because of what my mom had done to me. From Hans Christian Anderson, I can say that the hijab is an illusion and being blind is good in this case. Babataher criticises sight for that it has caused his heart to be in prison. Incidentally, Babataher is nude! To enter the “self” piece, I can say in hallucinations I usually try to persuade others and try to attract them which is against my being myself. I value other’s opinion about me in hallucinations which will destroy my independence. Can the simple motto be yourself! solve the problem?

 

The ultimate goal is clear: Getting rid of hallucinations. But how to do that? This has been a long-lasting problem. I think I should be aware of my childhood lack ness ( from mom perhaps) and try to be in peace with that. I don’t know what sort of memory is causing this trap for me, the only things I remember are that one time in childhood my mom has put pepper on my mouth and me being shameful in front of the TV. The very fact that on 3 December when I heard about Jeffry Young, my mom reproached me. Also, in childhood, she encouraged (I remembered Shakira and her kids- may be some relation! – refer to Tel.) us to buy her bracelet. All in all, hallucinations are preposterous! I organize everything and at the same time, I believe it!

 

agenda

باید بگذاری اینفد شوی

به حس و حال قدرتمند بودن فکر کن

ملزم نباش کاری انجام بدی

اا

چیزی که خیلی مواقع بر وجود ما حاکم است چیزی بیش تر از یک حس نیست، حسی مثل خشم، خود کم بینی و ... و اگر از این احساس رهایی یابیم بسیاری از افکار هم از بین می روند.

این که آیا میشود آن حس را عوض کرد نکته قابل بحثی است.

این احساس منفی را خودمان می فهمیم و دوست نداریم بقیه به آن ها پی ببرند چون تلویحا میدانیم خودمان را کوچک می کنیم.

شاید پنهان کردن آن یکی از شرط های رهایی از آن ها هم باشد.

اولین نکته برای این حالت غلبه بر این احساس است نه افکار!!

هنر میتواند بهترین ابزار باشد.

هنری که این احساس زهرآگین را زیبا خواهد کرد چگونه باید بوجود بیاید؟

1. مطلقا تکلف نباشد.

2. درباره موضوع زوری نباشد.

3.تکیه بر رندوم های ذهنی باشد.

4. به هیچ عنوان به کتب و... مراجعه نشود چون افکار به خدمت احساس می آیند.

5.کمی اوضاع را کنترل کرد با کار های کوچک بد نیست.

6. سعی در رفع نیاز ذهنی نباشد.( فعالیت ها به حداقل کاهش یابد)

7.باز بودن در مواجه با ماجرا و عدم تحمیل برای فهم حقیقت.

8. اعتماد به روزنه های فکری

9.به فکر اجازه ورود بده و بگذار حرف بزند ولی تو موضعت را حفظ کن!

10. مسایل برای یک بار مطرح شوند و نتیجه صادر شود!! و تصمیم قاطعانه گرفته شود!!

11.به هر حال طبیعی است و باید قبول کرد بعد از مدتی اوضاع فکری آرام تر و منطقی تر میشود.

12. قدرت پوچ کردن

13. به  هر حال واقعیت هایی هم هست ...

14. مقابله مستقیم نکن و تسلیم شو چون از تو بیش تر میگیرد.

15. راه حل فقط در مواقع سر حالی تولید و پیش از غلیان فکری به کار خواهد آمد ولی در هنگام هجوم نگران نباش که پیشروی کند...

16. سرعت داد و حکم مساله را داد و رفت.

17. حرکات غیر عادی هم بد نیست.مثلا بردن سر زیر آب- نوشیدن آب- دویدن-بازی - پارچه بزاری و داد بزنی بدون تولید حس

18.هنوز میل هایی هست که تشنه اند!!! باید تصمیم قاطع گرفت بدون تولید حس و مظلوم نمایی

19. به هیچ وجه رو به کسی نکن. سعی کن کمی اوقات تلخی بکنی که از تو عصبانی باشند.

20.تصویر های ذهنی

چرخه حیات

روح اصل و خودآگاهی فریب است، تمرین یکی شدن با روح شعر است؛ شعر از زیبایی می آید و زیبایی از شوق و شوق از اعمالی مثل نماز که به مفهوم تلاش آگاهانه برای نابودی خودآگاه است.

نفس

مستی واقعی در تعادل است!!