Make it real(contains more contents!)

 

·        I figured out that if I go through the watchword “make it real” it will help to act more on the project.

·        I think being honest can help!

·        Also thinking positively about people can help.

·        Power stimulated my stimulateJ

·        I’m thinking whether Ahmad Azizi’s post may bring attention or not! Definitely   I want it to!

·        Page 14 of Sophie’s World was in my mind recently!

·        I think I should avoid triviality and jump to my den!

·        I hate my father and mother passivity

·        I have to be honest!

·        I should take care of what’s inside me

·        I shouldn’t lie about my internship!!

·        I should avoid the Nosha deception! I had fallen to well, so I should be aware!!

·        Grownups!

·        I shouldn’t be in the enchanted slumber of thoughts!

·        Stop imagining about Bryce loskey’s laughter and make comment of it for M.M!!

·        What a sly self!

·        You are in love with that girl? OK! OK! but don’t go to the deception!!!

·        Only the keen knife of pen can kill the abundances of thought’s lines

·        Phlegmatic

·        Lucrative post of warden of mint

·        Send them on the gallows

·        She is only pushy and stubborn

·        Seeing films repeatedly can help

·        Just a whiny and gossip girl

·        I thought to make a weak point of M.M’s hair! Maybe because I see her better than myself!

·        I whispered that being in insta and post a lot has a reverse relation with reason! I whispered that make love in insta is bad and lack of courage! I imagined A.F and E.B kissing me! I imagined E.B makes poet for me! It shows that I have fallen in love hardly!

 

 

یا علی شیر خدا دستم بگیر

نیستم اما تو در هستم بگیر

ای تو باب الله در بر من گشا

بر گدایی خوشه از خرمن گشا

ای که هستی بر دلم آگاه تو

عاشقان را جمله عین الله تو

آه ای شیر دغل گیر هژیر

عاشقان خویشتتن را در پذیر

 

ما هم حافظ شدیم...

دست از طلب ندارم تا کام من برآید                                  

 I won’t give up my quest till I achieve my purpose

یا تن رسد به جانان یا جان ز تن برآید

Either my body arrives to sweetheart or my heart comes out of my body    

 

بگشای تربتم را بعد از وفات و بنگر

Open up my grave after my death and see

کز آتش درونم دود از کفن برآید

That smoke of the fire of my inside comes out from my shroud

بنمای رخ که خلقی واله شوند و حیران

Show your face till people become distracted and perplexed

بگشای لب که فریاد از مرد و زن برآید

Speak till cry comes out of men and women

 

جان بر لب است و حسرت در دل که از لبانش

The heart is between the lips and there is regret in soul

نگرفته هیچ کامی جان از بدن برآید

For if he can’t kiss the lips and die

 

از حسرت لبانش آمد به تنگ جانم

From the regret for his (?) lips my heart gets tight

خود کام تنگ دستان کی زان دهن برآید

When would the tight-handed! Be satisfied by those lips

گویند ذکر خیرش در خیل عشق بازان

They speak about him kindly in the swarm of lovers

هر جا که نام حافظ در انجمن برآید

When the name of Hafez resonates in the association

In the company (2)

 

Dr.Behnia summoned me now and asked my name and wanted me to study more! After that I was a bit excited and intemperate so I couldn’t concentrate on the subject! Some thoughts are passing my brain now: 1.what if M.M pushed the story because of my absence in insta? 2.what if M.M  hates me?

I should come back be active…

God please prevent me from being haughty…

Why I like M.M? Is my love dirty? Or as Mr.haghighatdoost told in dorehami…I should be more doubtful…

ربنا اهدنا الصراط المستقیم! صراط الذین انعمت علیهم...

ربنا افرغ علینا صبرا والنصرنا مع القوم الکافرین...

ربنا لا تزغ قلوبنا بعد اذ هدیتنا.....

Attacking myself

Just now after my brother was lashing out at my father’s family, I was silent and found that my laughter at Thursday party night was wrong! Hence, it led to criticize my thoughts again! :

·        I simply wanted to use blj to attract M.M.

·        I apologized just for the sake of her attention.

·        I posted that posts just to show off.

·        I made points in the party just for the sake of attention!

In the way of my project…

·       There are a lot of deceptions through my project; thoughts that make me passive are a lot! I want my Lord to help me overcome this and find my way through my purpose!

·       God help me!! Please help me! I want to be phlegmatic.

·       I want to really get out of this shit and find a way through your heaven.

·       Help me…

My summer started!

 

 

 

·        I think this fear of being liked or not is very strong that I can go to my abstaining mood again.

·        The challenge is this: whether to continue on this or going and facing the fire or a third option?

·        What would happen if I became overcame (?) by bad thoughts after seeing the likes? Not only them but also from my off-friends that seem to be fair weather!

·        According to my personality I think it would be better to avoid people.

·        Checking the account is always possible! But vice versa is incorrect.

·        Another issue that may push to come back again will be liking (?) them! The main issue is that they are important to me!

·        Another fact is that they don’t like me absolutely.

·        Another fact is that it is bad morally to have relation with them.

·        Another fact is that I have done my part more than needed! So if they break it it’s their fault!

·        Now that I went to the buffet of college of science I went to a contemplative mood which I imagined my phone stuck in the snow and moving snowflakes collide with its screen. It also proves that I should continue with an open eye!

 

 

Conclusion:

1.      Continue on the project!

2.     Also try to be free and apply my past experiences.

3.     Don’t come back to social networks!

4.     Try to let them away but don’t abandon the project that is connected with one of them.

Language part:

      I.          I won’t trespass anybody’s private life!

    II.          I won’t be stooge of anyone! Even those who try to free me!

  III.          I will push my nostrils!

  IV.          I fuck the sycamore.

 

 

کمی خودکاوی

I am afraid of the likes so I don't wanna go to insta.

I saw a sleep last night about it: M.M had put a half-comment. Amani did the same! soroush sehat! also did and he also gave me the link! ...

But I feel an espesial power that it gives me by abstraining from ideas of being... if I could do this I think it will help for project too.

I also think that apology was a mental unloading and it will have bad effecfs for me! and beacause of that I made inner conversations of this is religious and...

I have also some sense of persistance as I have posted last night.

This mood is also good that happened after yesterday post.I think I can turn it to benefit if I can.

I'm taking control!

• My today post and not watching the likers gave energy!

• I want to post my winter video and write caption about  15th of mordad

• I feel I’m getting control of my life and now I’m an elector 

• I would continue on my journey.

• I’m going to eat puff!

Desultory thoughts!

·        I should come to myself and be Amir!

·        In last two days I started to have good idea and imaginations about myself and also I’m afraid of that

·        It’s good that I have various language platforms that each of them fits a mood

·        Action!!

·        Irregular watching at mirror helps!!

·        I should fathom the secrets of the universe

·        Thoughts are disasters! Just action!! They should be used only in some limited case because …

·        Never set your mind at rest

·        Continue on the journey…

Translation of wound

·        I feel like the boy before Bryce in auction.

·        Drinking water helps preventing constipation.

·        An image between two mirrors will have a perpetual motion.

·        I won’t let grudge or animus enter my heart.

·        I should shave my umbilical area.

·        I had posted a handicap man.

 

Today I posted on instagram a post from Ahmad Aziz’s famous book: ‘Translation of wound’.

It came out of my yesterday watching movie and the way it gave me the energy to fire my

 

imagination.

 

But it didn’t get the likes I expected. But I decided to overcome the thoughts of being hated by

 

others and stand active and as I get to the purpose all of them will admire me! So I have to  

 

keep going on what I was planned!