You know sometimes I
go to a ponder other people attitude toward their circumstance and
I think some people
are naturally happy for example eh.b, IT students, Dr.shat, Dr.naz,… whereas I
think I’m not! One of the main reason can be biology because my father and
mother are not such happy!
A probable reason of
happiness can be freedom but all of them are free? Are they really
happy or they just having the face?
Anyway I shouldn’t
lose myself and must accept myself as what I am and what I want to be really,
not fake. I don’t mean closing the eyes to world but anything which is perceived
should be internalized first and I should see it with my eye! I’m
different from others.
I’m not myself! I
have many chains. Every thought are my enemy! Can’t I let everything
away for a while?! Whole idea of freedom,happiness,paradox,love,.. cannot
be dumped for a while? Am I
right in following my thoughts? Isn’t it real freedom to let them away?
I should confess that
I went to this sensation by hearing about my old classmates, maybe it
recalled me my thought’s vanity.
Another point that
should be mentioned is that I’m totally capable of changing mood!
It is very stupid to
put yourself in others point of view, it has happened for myself that after
passing a stage and seeing from vantage point my idea was totally
different from when I wasn’t in that point.
What’s the benefit of
regret? If there is any benefit it is not the way I think! It is more practical
and it’s not something to be said in words!