یادگاری ها

شعر ها و دل نوشته هایم

یادگاری ها

شعر ها و دل نوشته هایم

۳ مطلب در فروردين ۱۳۹۶ ثبت شده است


Today was virtually good I could have self-control. I went out without hands free. I didn’t comment on the classes! Concrete TA, although I had questions (steel in slab, maximum steel ratio) but I wait till I asked them privately. Structural analysis TA, again although I wanted to ask about the assessment but I defied the desire. Also I could somehow forbear looking at the mirror. Also I could shift through delusion to reality several times. I admit that s.s is an intelligent man according his silence for chatterers!  

I tasted the joy of wrecking the ego and having hope for God!

I hope my Lord helps me in surveillance of my ego and finally obliterate it.

I hope my lord helps me deciphering the code of unity.

  • JUST DO


God has again done me a favor; he has resolved my recent problem.it ended beautifully by K1 starting to post in telegram and I considered it as a good omen. I should be gracious and I am. It means I should be more earnest in the battle against my ego. I felt two things very rigorously: 1. Patience 2. Ego I don’t want to discuss in detail but I understood that I should be patient in problems and this can turn it to benefit. Also I understood that I shouldn’t feed my and others ego too! Because the devils are with each other as the God’s lions are!   

  • JUST DO


You know sometimes I go to a ponder other people attitude toward their circumstance and world.

I think some people are naturally happy for example eh.b, IT students, Dr.shat, Dr.naz,… whereas I think I’m not! One of the main reason can be biology because my father and mother are not such happy!

A probable reason of happiness can be freedom but all of them are free? Are they really happy or they just having the face?

Anyway I shouldn’t lose myself and must accept myself as what I am and what I want to be really, not fake. I don’t mean closing the eyes to world but anything which is perceived should be internalized first and I should see it with my eye! I’m different from others.

I’m not myself! I have many chains. Every thought are my enemy! Can’t I let everything away for a while?! Whole idea of freedom,happiness,paradox,love,.. cannot be dumped for a while?  Am I right in following my thoughts? Isn’t it real freedom to let them away?

I should confess that I went to this sensation by hearing about my old classmates, maybe it recalled me my thought’s vanity.

Another point that should be mentioned is that I’m totally capable of changing mood!

It is very stupid to put yourself in others point of view, it has happened for myself that after passing a stage and seeing from vantage point my idea was totally different from when I wasn’t in that point.

What’s the benefit of regret? If there is any benefit it is not the way I think! It is more practical and it’s not something to be said in words!

  • JUST DO