جمعه, ۲۴ شهریور ۱۳۹۶، ۰۵:۴۰ ب.ظ
I wanna write after a big delay.
Recently we had travelled to Shiraz and many things happened:
1. My brother took action in family affairs and started to attack my parents in order to shake their manners and he got results too! I think his determinacy and purpose was a key role. At first I started to be jealous of it but at last I went to sense of accepting the truth and good things happened that will be discussed below anon.
2. I should say that I had feelings of being just an imitator and have nothing from myself but meanwhile I started to insist on my project for M.M(more accurately the final cause of the project will be M.M ) and while I was thinking of saying hello to her an old man in the park that was sporting! said hello to me!
3. Another event was that when I started to think critically toward my desire for M.M I thought maybe my will is a matter of lust but when I came to write a post of it the computer shut down and I got a random poem from the Hafez which said:
دلا در عاشقی ثابت قدم باش...که در این ره نباشد کار بی اجر
4. Another event was yesterday when after imagining about M.M in river and etc. I went to a mood that I could dig a little more in The Great Gatsby and it made me feel better.
5. Also I arrived that what is told as self-surveillance is necessary. As an example I can mention the day at the company when I was filled with bad emotions about my body I decided to change the mood by looking at external objects and Mr.Behnia told me of this too and after that I started to feel better.
6. Today I had a little bad feelings maybe because of hearing about things that reminded me of my apology in instagram or my probable fertility issue! Or the thing that happened to my grandma!
7. I think I should be more earnest!
یا لطیف ارحم عبدک الضعیف...