From recent events: 1.M.G 2.family dispute
I concluded that I should pray and also it will have practical benefits on my profane life at least! I don’t reckon on other virtues that probably exist.
One major problem is this: Is it hypocrisy? Am I phony? (Absolutely! Because I want to call the GodJ )
One thing that is indisputable is that I have to be rogue otherwise it will get worse and I should see the other side! Everything is not rosy there! There is hypocrisy there, there is filth there, and there is trap there!
Let’s see what will happen if I start praying at uni:
1. I will be on a high horse!
2. Mokhlesses will come for me!
3. Anyway I’m not a full Muslim and praying is an incarnation for it and may cause others to think more about what I am. And it’s clear that I have the faculty of vanity.
4. There would be political impression over it.
5. It will show me holy and pure whereas I’m dirty!
OK, as I mentioned I have to be rogue! I will start praying experimentally and discretely and if God helps discreetly tooJ . If Lord wanted it I will continue!
“Anyway he is predator and I’m prey and preys must prayJ”